Sunday, January 23, 2011

A year later.... definitely better.

Here I am.  365 days after my life took a detour... that turned out to be the road I needed to go down.

I am so grateful for the past year.  I have grown as an individual, as an adult, as a teacher.  I've bought my own house and done some major (for me) renovations.  I've reconnected with old friends.... that a year ago, I didn't know I had lost.  I tried for a second chance... and it didn't work out.  That one still stings a bit, but I'm glad I tried it.  Better to know than always wonder.

I have come to know how lucky I am.  I work with an amazing staff, who supports me and cares about ME, not just the music teacher.  I have an amazing support system in my family and friends.  While I may be considered a work-a-holic right now (full time teaching job, plus 25+ hours a week at the Slopes), I'm lucky enough to get friend time in too.  Staci and Ben are the best for letting me crash every time they work.  I get to meet new people and hang with them, and I don't have to drive the hour home after (thanks to my parents for dog-sitting so it's possible!).

Today was an example of my new-found perfect day.  I woke at Ben and Staci's after a relaxing evening.  Went to church with them this morning, saw their boys.  Drove to Mom and Dad's, talked with them for a bit before bringing Jager home.  And then.... we chilled.  Laundry, making dinner, catching up on some shows.... it's just relaxing.  I wish it happened more often - but then it would be someone else's life, not mine.  I am glad that I can luxuriate in the simple things and enjoy where I am in life, even if I did feel a pang of envy this morning.  Watching all of the happy families in church this morning... I know someday I'll be a mother.  But for now, I'm happy to be a doggy momma and be able to be a little selfish :)

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
~Robert Frost


Anonymous said...

you say it SO well, and I completely understand where you are coming from! :-) Stay the strong amazing person you are!

Chocolate Lover said...

Everything happens for a reason I think. All the growing you have done this last year is preparing you to be an even better mother when the time comes! Stay strong!