I am so grateful for the past year. I have grown as an individual, as an adult, as a teacher. I've bought my own house and done some major (for me) renovations. I've reconnected with old friends.... that a year ago, I didn't know I had lost. I tried for a second chance... and it didn't work out. That one still stings a bit, but I'm glad I tried it. Better to know than always wonder.
I have come to know how lucky I am. I work with an amazing staff, who supports me and cares about ME, not just the music teacher. I have an amazing support system in my family and friends. While I may be considered a work-a-holic right now (full time teaching job, plus 25+ hours a week at the Slopes), I'm lucky enough to get friend time in too. Staci and Ben are the best for letting me crash every time they work. I get to meet new people and hang with them, and I don't have to drive the hour home after (thanks to my parents for dog-sitting so it's possible!).
Today was an example of my new-found perfect day. I woke at Ben and Staci's after a relaxing evening. Went to church with them this morning, saw their boys. Drove to Mom and Dad's, talked with them for a bit before bringing Jager home. And then.... we chilled. Laundry, making dinner, catching up on some shows.... it's just relaxing. I wish it happened more often - but then it would be someone else's life, not mine. I am glad that I can luxuriate in the simple things and enjoy where I am in life, even if I did feel a pang of envy this morning. Watching all of the happy families in church this morning... I know someday I'll be a mother. But for now, I'm happy to be a doggy momma and be able to be a little selfish :)
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— | |
I took the one less traveled by, | |
And that has made all the difference. |
~Robert Frost
2 comments:
you say it SO well, and I completely understand where you are coming from! :-) Stay the strong amazing person you are!
Everything happens for a reason I think. All the growing you have done this last year is preparing you to be an even better mother when the time comes! Stay strong!
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