I don't know about you, but crying during my workday just doesn't work for me. Part of that is that regaining my state of mind to teach young children takes a lot of effort - part of it is that I'm usually about finished at that point. Needless to say, with being unhappy about the current situation, I want to cry at least a few times a day. Something hits me, I have a thought of something we did, I see a picture, and I fight tears.
In the process of not crying, I've ended up with an upset tummy. It's in knots most of the day, and I'm not hungry. I still eat 3 meals a day because I'm supposed to, and if I get hungry I make sure to take advantage of it. Most of the time, my tummy is so upset that I feel like I should be afraid to eat. I try to drink a lot of coke (it was what my mom used to give me when I was sick) and eat tums when that's no possible.
I keep thinking things will get easier. I keep thinking that today will be the day I don't cry. Then I fall into a trap somewhere, or someone mentions something, and I feel myself choking up. Repressing it is driving me crazy, but it's what I have to do to get through the day. I know it WILL get easier - I just hope that it happens sooner rather than later!
How do you deal with sadness in your work-life? Any tips for going through a grieving process while still functioning?